papa’s day

four years ago this september, when we found out what was about to happen — how drastically our lives were going to change — i gave aaron the option to walk away. if he wasn’t ready for this, if he couldn’t be committed to giving this child his all, i told him i’d rather do it on … Continue reading papa’s day

one and only

reproducing was not something i had planned for my life, but life seemed to have a different better plan for me. a little over three years ago, i became the proud mama of a beautiful baby boy who flipped my world upside down in the best possible way. before liam, my life’s ambition was to travel; … Continue reading one and only

a letter to liam

to my darling boy, today, you turn 3. how did that happen? weren’t you just born? wasn’t it just the other day you were waking at night for milk, babbling in baby-speak, learning how to crawl? the truth is — as much as it pains me to say — while you may still enjoy being cradled and … Continue reading a letter to liam

ch-ch-changes

there was once a time when liquid eyeliner and lipstick were two of my most faithful friends. i just wasn’t myself without a good winged eye and bold, red lip; it felt unnatural (and almost wrong) to go without it. there was once a time i put genuine effort into my appearance on a regular basis — not to … Continue reading ch-ch-changes

right or wrong

as soon as we finalized the application paperwork for the loft downtown and handed it over to the office, there was a painful rush of doubt. it didn’t feel right. it felt like we were making the wrong choice for our boy. for the week it took to hear whether or not we were approved, … Continue reading right or wrong